Just one more.

Hey Yoona, it's me again.

Never thought I'd come here again, but yeah. So much has happened since I left this blog with the last post, I've been through so much, pool, life, people, my share of everything. It's been so easy to see through so many people and things after everything I've been through, and frankly since you, I've been skeptical bout trust.

Nobody knows why I hate love shows. Friends all know I think they're stupid, but I actually don't. It's just that they remind me of you. Of us. It hasn't been easy, all this time, I've lost count since the day you walked out of my life. But I still remember everything like it was just yesterday. Up till now, I still find it hard to walk off without an answer. I don't even have a fucking clue what the hell it was. Is it really that hard to just tell me straight? Then I can finally put all this weight down and move forward.

I just don't know what to do right now. Tell me, tell me what to do! It was so easy when you were around, probably because you were all that mattered to me. I was just cleaning my room a few days back when I saw your letters, heaped on top of one another. And honestly, I myself didn't know I still had those feelings going strong. I wasn't crying-crying, I wasn't sobbing. Tears just kept on falling.

It's so sad it's funny, how I don't want you back but I'm crying and hurting like the opposite. Truth is I don't want you back. But I just can't let it go. I don't know if I can, without an answer, but I know I've been trying hard to since you left ages ago. I'm hoping this'll help me feel better, because I don't really have anyone I can tell this to, those who know are already sick of hearing it.

I love you Yoona, you're still the most beautiful woman in my eyes. I will never forget how you made me feel when we were together. Won't forget the way you played with my hair till it hurt, but I never flinched. Won't forget how you giggle when I hold you., how we raced each other running backward and you would always win? I let you, just to see you flash that winning smile I love the most. Ko ma wa, ja gi ya. Thanks for all the memories.

Although we can never ever be together again, know this. I'll think of you every now and then, our memories are safe in my heart. And I will always remember the way you kiss, the way you bite, the way you always try to leave a lovebite but fail. And when the day comes where I forget all the little things you do, rest assured. Because I'll always remember I once so fiercely loved a girl named Yoona.

Yours,
Taek Woo.